Escort relationship

Here is what our beautiful escort girl Adele, wrote about her last relationship:

“Three months. We never got any further. I’ve been sitting here for six months and thinking about the three months with you. It’s funny what an impression you made. For me, you are a great hope and a bitter disappointment. Everything is connected to your person. When I met you, I was overwhelmed – blown away by you. You were confident and always laughed with me. For me, you are a great hope and a bitter disappointment. Everything is connected to your person. When I met you, I was overwhelmed.

When I think of you, I see your brown eyes in front of me—the wrinkles around you when you smile. I see your teeth flash as your mouth wraps pull up—your frown when you concentrate. I can still remember how your lips felt on mine, how you took my hand in yours and put it in your jacket pocket when it was cold outside. I feel your hug whenever I could need it. You are no longer here. I haven’t seen your smile in forever.

Too much for you

It was a stab in the heart when you told me I was too much of everything. You taught me what heartbreak means, how it is when suddenly something is missing that you would have liked to keep. I grabbed my shoes and stormed out your door. It was a stab in the heart when you told me I was too much of everything.

You taught me what heartbreak means, how it is when suddenly something is missing that you would have liked to keep. You wanted to drive me home, but I couldn’t take you a moment longer. You checked me out but made no move to stop me. Not a step out of your door frame. I got out, and I called the only person whose voice I wanted to hear at that moment: my closest friend, Olivia, who also works for the same Escort Agency as me. And then the tears suddenly broke over me.

You checked me out but made no move to stop me.

I was crying on the subway. I bought a beer at the kiosk because you do that when everything sucks. I didn’t drink it; it’s still in the fridge today. The following two weeks were tough. My eyes were constantly swollen. I cried morning and noon and night and while brushing my teeth, so much that I choked.
THERE WAS NOTHING THERE when I looked in the mirror, just an empty shell filled with tears. The worst were the questions I couldn’t get out of my head: why all this? When did we lose each other? What have I done wrong?

My life without you

I waited for a message from you, but it didn’t come. You erased me from your life from one day to the next. And I’ve started to forbid myself to ask questions. I moved houses. To the apartment, I found with you on the internet. And when I held the keys in my hands and suddenly stood in the empty apartment, everything collapsed on me. I wanted to share this moment with you.

I cried to think that these rooms will never be filled with your voice; you’ll never be here. I called because I was about to move out of my shared room where I woke up with you in the morning. Six months have passed since then. I only think about you now and then. My heart only clenches when your name suddenly appears on my phone screen. You will no longer get an answer. I don’t want to know anymore that you miss me.

My heart only clenches when your name suddenly appears on my phone screen.

You will no longer get an answer. I don’t want to know anymore that you miss me. I’ve slept with six men since then. I even met someone I like. But you are omnipresent. Your photo is in my favourite book. You are still here, and as I write these lines, I know how true that is. What do I need right now? Time alone.
I forgive you – It’s just hard for me to forgive myself.

Half a year. We haven’t been in contact for so long. I don’t know what’s happening to you and if you’re still with your new girlfriend. I haven’t looked at your profile for half a year, and I don’t think about you anymore. Because, when I think of you, somehow everything’s fine, and somehow it’s not. I forgive you, but…I have forgiven you Fully. You are a great person, and I am thrilled to find your happiness. At least that’s my last stand. I would never wish you anything wrong, because the way everything went in this one year, everything was right.

I have forgiven you. Fully.

I want to blame you for committing myself to you and loving you with whom I made contact that I kept getting upset about you. When I think of you now, it’s not your fault. Our time was excellent for real. I like you, and I know that with your rough edges, you are just you. I appreciate you a lot. I don’t want to say that I alone am to blame. At least not the whole. I won’t let myself take on this burden; after all, we were two.

I don’t want to say that I alone am to blame. At least not the whole.

Finally, there were two of us. I can’t forgive myself. When I think of you, I constantly see my mistakes. See my desire to reconnect, even though it had failed before.

See that I was always there while you drifted further and further away from me. See my joy when you keep coming back. See how I offered us the friendship, even though I believe there could never have been.

See how many times I just wanted to cut ties and doubted and never went through with it because I couldn’t. See how I gave you, especially myself, a break of two weeks because otherwise, my heart and head would have exploded. See how I analyze everything, even though it’s far too late.

Acceptance

I can’t change anything anymore, and I don’t want to either. Maybe I pushed you into her arms with my sudden distance that I didn’t let you know. Somewhere we are stagnant. Maybe as early as January 2020. Little things remind me of you because that was our thing together. Do you perhaps think of me when new seasons of “our” series come out? How did we talk about it? As I recommended them to you?

I can’t change anything anymore, and I don’t want to either.

Maybe I pushed you into her arms with my sudden distance that I didn’t let you know. I want to forgive myself. I’ve already let go of you. Every day a little more. I remember that after you, I couldn’t get to know anyone. I wasn’t ready for that. Now I realize it’s me again.

I’ve learned a lot from you. About me. About you. And about nonsensical topics like getting to know each other, “love”, and being happy. I want to forgive myself. I’ve already let go of you. Every day a little more. I still don’t think it was anything serious between us. At some point, I wished for it. Unfortunately, some wishes do not come true. Especially not if only one person in two believes in it.

Guilt shared is guilt halved.

Forgive and forget. I have that. So maybe don’t forget because it was a necessary experience, but I forgive and forgive you. I know you’re not aware of any guilt, but I’d like to give you some of it. I know you’re not aware of any guilt, but I’d like to give you some of it.

The guilt that we were in touch for so long, that you made me feel like you might be interested at times, that you answered me and made contact, that you kept coming back, that I was never priority one. But I can also put the last point on my list. A mistake I make far too often. At least that’s how it feels. I don’t want to put him on my list, though.

And so I’m sitting here again, and I can’t forgive myself. You moved on with your life, I mine. I am happy—a lot. I’m done with you But not with me yet. I’m not questioning you; I’m asking myself. I’m done with you But not with me yet. I know that doesn’t sound healthy. But every step I take with me is another way from you and back to me.

To my whole self and the certainty and acknowledgement that I did everything right and forgive myself from head to toe.

5 SMALL BUT IMPORTANT THINGS YOU SHOULD START MAKING TIME FOR AGAIN

No matter how busy you are, make time for these minor things. They are more important than you think. This is a new day. This is a new beginning. This is your chance to be happy here and now.
Put these small but essential things on your list for which you should start making time again and include them again in your life:

1. It’s time to start enjoying moments of peace again

Make sure that every day you have a little time just for yourself – a few moments of peace away from the daily hustle and bustle, in which you do not think about problems, do not look for solutions and do not stress too much. Find time each day not to be busy – at least twice a day, for a few minutes, withdraw from everyday life and enjoy peace of mind:

• Meditate.
• Listen to your favourite song.
• Listen to a short podcast.
• Stay in quietly, doing nothing, writing in a diary, reading a few pages from a book.

2. It is time to start allowing yourself to learn from your mistakes

The biggest mistake many people make is to live with the constant fear that they will make mistakes. Life is too short of rebuking you for what you’ve done in the past. After all, mistakes are as sure as the sunset. So why waste energy avoiding the inevitable? What you can do is allow yourself to make mistakes so that you can learn from them, grow, grow, and help yourself become the best version of yourself.

3. It’s time to rejoice in the small victories of each day

Think about it, maybe it wasn’t a great day, but it was a beautiful day. Find those little victories every day; notice these things and rejoice in them. Train your mind to see what is right, what is positive, and what is beautiful. The happiness of your life depends mainly on the quality of your thoughts.

4. It’s time to start spreading joy around you again

Choose to be the change you want to see. He loves without fear and limits. No act of love or kindness, no matter how small, is wasted. The best part of your life is not just surviving but prospering with passion, compassion, generosity, and kindness. Improve your life and help those around you. Smile and help others smile. If you do not have the power to make someone happy, try to help him eliminate the sadness in his life. How? With small, simple documents.

5. It’s time to be grateful for the life you live

Stop focusing on the past and stop worrying about the future. The time has come to live here and now and learn to love your life as it is and be happy with what you have. How can you do that? Cultivating the art of gratitude. Learn to be grateful for what you are going through right now. Love who you are, love life with good and evil.